I had no energy, no confidence, and no idea what to do to fix it…
And my situation was worse than most because I was born with a condition called hip dysplasia.
It’s where the hips don’t form quite right during birth…
Now if caught early enough it can be fixed... but my doctor missed it…
And this condition has caused me to have over 18 reconstructive hip surgeries in my life so far…
Now unfortunately with this condition being just a little overweight can add excruciating pain to everyday life….
So those almost 40 extra pounds I had felt more like 100 pounds and made life nearly unbearable…
With the relentless daily pain I could barely walk, let alone go to the gym to workout…
It got so bad that I soon felt hopeless….
And I didn’t know what to do and had no one to turn to…
I tried diets and all the latest fads with no success…
I even tried what little exercise I could, gritting my teeth because of the pain, with no results…
And it seemed like my bad situation was snowballing…
A little extra weight meant more pain…
More pain meant less movement and more “comfort eating”… just trying to feel better…
I just wanted to do ANYTHING to drown out the pain and the bad feelings…
And this emotional eating lead to more and more weight piling on…
It was like I was stuck in my own personal “cycle of doom”…
And I could tell that others were worrying about me just by the look on their faces…
I could tell that they were shocked and confused about how quickly my problems got out of control…
And the feeling of sheer despair and hopelessness was nearly unbearable…
I absolutely hated looking at myself in the mirror…
And pictures?
Forget about it!
I hated having my picture taken and I was ALWAYS the one who volunteered to take the group pictures rather than being in them…
But group situations like that were becoming more and more rare because I was starting to become a hermit…
I didn’t want to leave the house because of how I looked and felt…
So to say I wasn’t living the life I was meant to live was an understatement…
I was missing out on everything...
And these feelings of hopelessness just built and built and made everything worse…
The world seemed dark to me and…